There are times when I desire to leave Minneapolis and venture out to another part of the country to start fresh. I’m sure there are several people who feel the same way, but will actually act on it. For me, I try to leave Minneapolis, but am always pulled back by one thing or another.
About a year ago, I was ready to leave Minneapolis and start a new chapter of my life in Los Angeles, CA. At that time, I was ready for a change in my life. A big change.
I was talking with my friend who had moved out there and she mentioned that I should come and visit. For me, it doesn’t take much convincing to go on a trip so I booked a flight within a day and was scheduled to visit in about two weeks.
Once I arrived, I felt like LA was instantly a place I could call home. Throughout the long weekend, my friend took me around the whole city and showed me what it would be like to live there. Needless to say, I fell in love with the city.
The night before I had to leave, I almost decided to stay in LA, quit my job and move there automatically. Because of my great flight rate for my round trip and that it was close to Father’s Day and my dad’s birthday I decided to go back to Minneapolis.
When I arrived back in Minneapolis, I decided that I would let one week go by and then decide if I would be going back to LA the following week with a one-way ticket. During that week, I searched for signs or epiphanies whether to move to LA or stay in Minneapolis.
Many friends told me that they supported my decision either way, but saw me living in Minneapolis rather than LA. Of course, I thought they were all insane and I knew that if I wasn’t getting any job offers in Minneapolis it was time for me to look elsewhere. Again, I was searching for change in my life and at that point I didn’t care where the change manifested I just needed something different in my life.
The Sunday of my “week” came and I still felt like I didn’t have my answer. I was standing in my apartment yell praying at God. I’m not sure if anyone has been frustrated at your situation enough to yell at God while you’re praying, but I swear sometimes that helps. I mean isn’t it better that we talk to him rather than turn from him in times of frustration? Anyway, my prayer was more of an ultimatum. I said to God that if he didn’t show me a clear as day sign that I was supposed to stay in Minneapolis the upcoming week, I would be taking the next one-way flight to LA at the end of the week. Boy, I’ve just got to say people, be prepared if you ever pray those types of prayers because He definitely will show up.
The next week I had 8 interviews with 6 different companies in Minneapolis. I was incredibly exhausted from working a full time job and interviewing that much, but I had a sense of awe. Awe that God showed up and gave me the answer I was so desperately needing at that time. From that interview week, I ended up accepting one of the positions and have been therefore almost a year now. In this job, I’ve had the opportunity to travel more than I ever thought possible with a position, be a leader on projects I found intimidating and progress my career in a way that I couldn’t have imagined.
Led By the Lamp
It’s been a year since I almost moved to LA and I’m happy to say that Minneapolis is my home and I believe it will be my home for quite some time. I sat on the patio of Asters Cafe on Saint Anthony Main today with one of my friends, getting a little burned on my face, I realized that have come to fully love Minneapolis as my city. It’s a place where I’ve lived all of my life and I used to view that as a negative quality, but am now accepting it as a positive.
I also learned through this experience from needing change and not finding it, that sometimes it’s okay to yell out to God for guidance and ask for those “clear as day” answers. Sometimes he will answer you in a way you never would have expected.
Do I know the reason I’m still in Minneapolis? No I don’t, but I do believe there is some sort of reason that every time I’ve tried to move away something always keeps me right where I am. Sometimes we just need to learn to let go and accept that we won’t see the whole picture in this moment. That we need to be okay with being led by the turn by turn directions of life.
“Your word is a lamp for my feet and a light on my path.” – Psalm 119: 105